Have you ever been shaken back to reality? How did you react to the event? Did it have a huge impact on your life?
Goodbyes took place as my mom held me in denial of wanting me to leave her again, eventually I was released and both of my parents led me to my car, which would eventually bring me back to my second home: GCU. It was the start to a fresh week! I was jamming out to a playlist that I have been all too accustomed to during these past few months, as I was dancing and singing along I started to creep up to school. I eventually came to the light right before my turn and as the light turned green the car in front of me proceeded through the intersection. Unfortunately a big truck made the decision to run the red light on his end and immediately clashed with the car in front of me. As the car was flipping it almost landed on my car, however after four flips it became immobile. As it landed upside down in front of my car, I was in shock. I was unable to move or speak. The only movement I had was trembles from my hands on the steering wheel.
Questions rushed to my head... what if I left my house a second earlier? What if that car was not in front of me? What if I did not say goodbye to my family the way I wanted to?
I faced a multitude of panic attacks promptly after, and the only three words I could say over and over again were, "Thank you, God".
You want to know something? I pray every time before a long drive. I pray God can watch over me and bring me to my destination safely. However, on that day I did not pray... I was distracted and fell off of normal routine. I believe this was my wake up call.
Has that ever happened to you before? Maybe not as extreme or maybe more extreme, but whatever it is God sometimes takes moments to bring us back to reality. I have been so distracted recently; between school, family, and friends I have not been concentrating a lot on my relationship with God.
God always is there, He always loves us, and He always watches over us. However, our God is always a jealous God and He wants us to give Him our attention and realize how much we rely on Him for our survival. I could not imagine my life without Him and often times I find myself trying to. I go through my day and when things are going good I don't find a need for Him (which is so not true and messed up thinking). Sometimes it just takes a scary moment of a point of sadness and anger to see Him. I would put it this way... When it is really bright in a room and all of the lights are on it is really hard to see a flashlights light. However when it is pitch black and a room is filled with darkness the flashlight; gives enough light in a room to illuminate it and give enough clarity to move around and see what is going on.
God is the flashlight. It is really hard to see His light when things are going well and there is already a lot of light in our lives. However, sometimes God turns off the switch and turns on the darkness and amongst all of the darkness His light is glaring bright enough to have an impact through all darkness.
John 1:5 "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it"
God definitely shined His light to me on that day of the crash. Through that moment I saw God's presence more then ever. The car flipped four times and landed right in front of me, one more flip and I was going to be done. God protected me, He watched over me in that crazy time. It was not my time to be reunited with Him yet. I feel like in that moment of shock God was telling me, "You are not done here on earth, focus on Me and continue to do work for My kingdom"
Our lives are not in our hands. Anything could happen at any moment and it can be a scary thought however, exciting at the same time. I can not wait for when God calls me home but until then I will live my life trying to be the best daughter I can be Him and His kingdom. I am not perfect and need a lot awakening moments however, it is important to realize that God uses those moments not to hurt you, but rather to help you in the long run. We all need God and the love He brings to our life. It is crazy how it took a Crash to bring me back to reality.
Dear God, thank you so much for being in every aspect of our lives. Thank You for loving us enough to bring us back to You when we lose direction. Thank you for protecting us and keeping us safe. We love you so much even though we don't show it all of the time. It is in Your name that we pray Amen!
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